Today's topic was not hiding from alcohol. As if one really could just pretend that it didn't exist. It reminded me of when I would take a week, well more like three or four days, off of drinking...only to "celebrate" afterwards. I cannot hide from alcohol. The great thing about admitting that I am an alcoholic is that I don't have to hide from it anymore. I might not like it, but so what?! It's a fact. I have a problem so I should be careful about who I hang out with and where. My old " friends" across the bay? probably not. A friend's birthday party at a bar? Sure. As long as I go to say " Happy Birthday!" say hello and catch up, meet a few people and leave I'm fine. I knew when it was time to go. I am not drinking but I still have the thinking so when I saw the second bottle coming around and the crowd getting to that fevered drunken pitch right before all hell breaks loose I cut. So much fun to drive home without fear of getting pulled over.
I don't have to shield myself from alcohol. That would be impossible. All I have to do is remember one simple thing. If I have one more drink I will die.